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My kind of sound, the path and the reflection...

And here we are again, after years of silence. My fingers are back to paint this blog with the click and clacking of my mechanical keyboard. That familiar sound that i learn to love and hate. The sound of the midnight oil burned in the name of work... or the sound my gaming venture, pwning.

The reason i'm here is not to talk about those sound but instead, to talk about music. The sheer magnitude that music have in my life. I have always lived my life with a background music running in my head. It is like I am living a scene of a movie. For those who might know me well enough or spent enough time around me, they would notice that i would occasionally hum a tune, whistle or sing out-loud without giving a damn about the surrounding because at that moment... that's the 'background music' of my 'movie'.

Sometimes, instead of humming the background music.. i would continue the last word of what a person say with a song a la pitch perfect battle minus the acapella twist.  Example:-

"jangan tinggal aku weih!!"
and i'll continue with "oh adik... ohhh juwita. kanda sedang rindu. Padamu yang manis jelita"

That's how music is king in almost every aspect of my life. The most common one would be 'the song' for that 'specific moment'. Like whenever i hear any Linkin Park Meteora songs, i would instantly be tranported back to my hostel life in UiTM. To the extend that i could still smell my worn out jeans, all the maggi mee, all the crazy/idiotic stunts down to midnight fart-etition (fart competition).

Most of the 'strong' musics i used to listen and jam to are very meaningful for me. hell, some are still in my playlist even as a father of two. I still need them, if not... the only music i would be listening would be Let it go and a whole bunch of other Frozen/Disney/Nickelodeon musical shows. The remedy of excessive 'Let it go' syndrome, common to fathers with daughters of age would be....

All the lols... better than the original let it go being played over and over and over and over again.

"Daddy, nak lagu yaya... nak let it go"

And here we go again... over and over and over...

The music that i love so much... the people... the bands.. a lot have changed in the music industry. Lately i've been digging and updating myself with all the music i used to listen to and my heroes singing the songs... most of them have settled down in a more quiet life.

Alexisonfire.. officially ended back in 2011 and did a farewell tour. Too bad Malaysia/Singapore wasn't in their touring list. They were the heroes of my youth.

Underoath... officially ended back in 2012 and they did drop by Malaysia for a farewell. hell, it was among the greatest night for me. nothing compares to the sheer presence of a band, the singalong and the mosh.

As i lay dying... didn't disband. instead, their frontman was trialed and convicted with the the attempt on his wife's life via hired guns and currently chilling in the state prison.

Emery is currently on hiatus and did a quick 10 years anniversary concert last year. without their bassist/vocals.. emery's sound is kinda lost in all their effort.

The only band of my youth... that is still active and delivering their music would be Funeral for a Friend. In my opinion the best band that ever walked the earth as their music fit my ears like a glove (errr... metaphorically... u dont wear gloves on your ears... dude... come on..!). I could still remember the first time i heard their song... Rookie of the Year in a Kerrang! compilation. It was superb. And later, as i was browsing some CDs in OU... there it was... FFAF's full album... Casually Dressed & Deep in Conversations. THE CD of my youth.

It is good to hear their new songs.. and please.. FFAF, come to Malaysia. =D (fanboy... yeah yeaaahh... i know..)

"I'm cutting the cord;
I'm cutting the cord that keeps me.
I'm cutting the ties;
I'm cutting the ties that
bind my feet to the ground, my head in the sand.
And when did the doors start to
close and why did we just turn away?
In favour of some passing
trend that lets us down everyday.
And do we believe in the words?
Do we believe in the words that
we say when we're screaming in
each other's faces just like the good old days?"
-Nails by FFAF

In a way... I'm not saying that the current crop of musicians, whichever scene you may want to refer to, lacks the quality. Im just saying.. those days.. those kind of music were MY kinda music. The same as your dads would say that no bands could ever be better than the Beatles. And here I am... listening to MY music using a headphone as my daughter is running around inside my room singing Let it go.

Sex Ed Rocks!!!!

yeaaa.. yeaa.. aku tau of late aku selalu post video youtube. nak buat macam mana? banyak sangat hilarious clips of late/lagu2 yang best aku jumpa kat situ. so this one... sangat menarik... wajib tonton =p

Psychosocial Baby!!!

inilah dia... justin bieber featuring slipknot... *finggers crossed harap satu hari nanti aku bleh tengok lagu ni live. hahahahahhahahahaha

Nostalgia musik remaja...

hari kekasih untuk aku adalah sama seperti hari2 lain. bezanya cuma hari tersebut akan kelihatan ramai orang menjual bunga2 dan hadiah2 cute dari 7E hinggalah ke tepian jalan. aku tak pernah celebrate atau rasa nak celebrate pun. dulu waktu belajar, mungkin lah sekadar membeli sekuntum bunga dari 7E buat teman ketika itu. and that's it (ye ke?). tapi for sure the last five six years.. v-day was nothing day for me. tahun ini... v-day dah jadi eeeeexxxxxxtraaaa special sebab band idola zaman remaja aku turun KL. (and of course sebab sekarang sudah ada cinta hati =D). 

the feeling was... nostalgic... contented.. relieved... satisfied... and percayalah. kat event tu ramai aku nampak lelaki yang menangis... sebab finally, dapat lihat, jumpa dan salam ngan idola remaja mereka (bukan aku ya!). bagi abg2 kakak2 yang kurang faham perasaan ni.. bayangkan kalau anda dapat berjumpa dengan Allahyarham Tan Sri P.Ramlee.. rasa nostalgic kan? macam itu lah rasanya buat lelaki2 dewasa yang nangis jumpa deftones ni... because semua orang kat situ membesar dengan music mereka. lapis2 bunkface, hujan semua ni mana mungkin faham... 10 tahun lagi.. lepas hujan dan bunkface dah ada anak dan jadi macam awie skarang ni, barulah faham agaknya. =D

Abang2 yang Deft dengan Tones..

januari bukanlah bulan yang produktif buat aku. students cuti.. kawan2 semua sibuk nak kawen/dah kawen.. so takleh nak kacau diorang sangat. kurang beraktiviti selain daripada mengayuh jer laa.. bulan depan febuari.. bulan dinanti-nanti pasangan bercinta. sebab ada valentines day. v-day? apa baraaanngg... 14th febuari nanti i have something better to do.. ni ha...

yeap... aku nakgi tengok deftones!! akhirnya... setelah sekian lama.. chino moreno turun gak sini! diorang ni hero zaman remaja aku dan dulu, aku akui, aku memang chino wannabe. siap dengan baggy pants.. janggut, rambut.. semua nak sama jer.. (sebab aku sedar aku bukan pretty face dan i could never pull a boyband look) =p fingers crossed.. please please please... main laaa lagu Change(in the house of flies), Digital Bath, My Own Summer,  Passenger, Root, 7 Words, Hexagram (and the list goes on and on...)

I was there...

"maybe i know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts
and we've got to find other ways to make it alone
keep a straight face. and i've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance
and up until now i had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
because none of it was ever worth the risk"

*edit

"But YOU are the only exception.." =)

Location: National Stadium

Date: 19/10/2010

Keseronokan dengan rasa bersalah...

Aku tatau nak cakap apa... aku suka lagu bodoh ni! hahahahah

"ohhh... you touched my tra la la la... mmm my ding ding dong"

Born and raised...

What's there to say? they're simply superb! =D

All blossoms die in the light of our new culture
Find your belief in that which cannot be discovered
Countless lessons lie in every fever dream
A million voices asking, what does it all mean?

I’ve lost all direction
I’ve lost all my direction
And now I wish, that I would have believed
Could have believed

Escape, escape
Nature’s indifferent hand
Retreat, retreat
To the bliss of our creation

We were born and raised
To live beyond
The heft and weight of a world undone
Like a bird from the north
Our hearts will roam in search of warmth

Two hands come together to pray for greater yields
Two poles of a compass guided by a field
In the mind of every man, two ghosts dance
Was this place made, or was it here by chance?
I’ve lost all direction
I’ve lost all my direction
And now I wish, that I would have believed
Could have believed

Escape, escape
Nature’s indifferent hand
Retreat, retreat
To the bliss of our creation

We were born and raised
To live beyond
The heft and weight of a world undone
Like a bird from the north
Our hearts will roam in search of warmth

Uncountable numbers written in new fallen snow
I can hear the claws of the beast tapping at my window
Nihilist sleeps and in dreams he sees god’s face
Realize even disbelief requires a leap of faith
From birth to death, we search for what’s yet to be known
We and hope and pray and ask, but we are never shown

Born and raised to live beyond
The heft and weight of a world undone
Like a bird from the north
Our hearts will roam in search of warmth

We were born and raised

It's just the way it is...

"maybe i know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts
and we've got to find other ways to make it alone
keep a straight face. and i've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance
and up until now i had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
because none of it was ever worth the risk"

and in my case.. there are no exceptions!

Singfest 2010...

luckily, i somehow managed to get my ass down to singapore for singfest. coheed's concert alone wasn't enough and i just HAVE to go down and watch 30seconds to mars and smashin' pumpkins with my own eye, right in front of my nose. the journey was a fun one indeed, accompanied by loyal friends. and yes, i'd be attending singfest 2011 for sure =D

yeaa yeaa... we're so jakun, wanna take pictures with almost everything.

at one time they were Hail the villains

and at another, he turned into Hail the King Kong!

Ian Brown with his tae bo/easy jog dance with a tamborine in hand

The vines

30 seconds to mars.. and yes, 30 seconds and then everyone goes crazy

Smashing Pumpkins with the 'new' iha and melissa

look what we found, two rockin' kids in the oceans of mosh and humans

Location: Fort Canning, Singapore
Date: 5/8/2010

Coheed dan Cambria..

Let the picture do the talking...

Lokasi: KL Live
Tarikh 1/8/2010

The pale blue dot...

The Pale Blue Dot

-story of the year

"The Earth is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena.
On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of,
every human being who ever was, lived out their lives.
Thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines,
every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every hero and coward,
every creator and destroyer of civilization,
every saint and sinner in the history of our species,
think of the rivers of blood spilled by all those generals and emperors so that,
in glory and triumph, they could become the momentary masters of a fraction of a dot.
Our posturings, our imagined self-importance,
the delusion that we have some privileged position in the Universe,
are challenged by this point of pale light,
and underscores our responsibility and to preserve and cherish the pale blue dot."


and yes, don't say you're saving it, because you're THAT insignificant to this pale blue dot. we're preserving it so that we could cling on to our insignificant existence.

Trying too hard to be deep eh?

It's bad enough that i hate most music coming from the radio nowadays. but some of them are really getting on my nerve. it's okay that you're the shallow pop music looping sound here and there. what's funny is, some of the song are trying so hard to put some depth to their song by playing with metaphors/simile or perhaps some analogy in their song. yeahh.. a good move. but you dont have to announce your metaphors/similes/analogies in your chorus and repeat it over and over again.. a good example would be the pyramid song, sang by the 'rojak' girl.. cant recall her name. the one with "like a pyramid heyy x6" as the chorus. or perhaps the avalanche song by marie digby (yes i know her name because she's smokin' HOT!). or perhaps the other one.. the battlefield song... but then again that one's not too obvious.. wanna pardon ms sparks or not eh? =p

NEVER, ever ever ever... announce your metaphors/similes/analogies directly when writing a lyric. one, you're insulting your listener as if they cant make the connections themselves... two.. you'd sound downright lame.. "shorty's love like a pyramid" yeaaa yeaaa.. whatever... i thought that 'rojak' girl have a powerful voice and appeared in oprah's show and all... why stuck with such sucky pop song?? if your voice is your strength... play your card right like how leona lewis did. (here) dont just take a ride on the 'popular' bandwagon.. and definitely don't follow mariah and her direct 'sex sells' approach. for me, she has deteriorated from a diva to a ________ <---- fill in the blanks lah! so that's all from me today.. lets take a guess on what's the next metaphor/simile/analogy that people are gonna come out with in their lame pop song.. i'd say 'baby you're my cabbage.. you give me iron and it makes me so strong' bwahahahah

Use somebody...

the song alone was brilliant... and when hayley sang it.. it's just perfect (for me of course!)

Use Somebody lyrics
Songwriters: Followill, Caleb; Followill, Jared; Followill, Matthew; Followill, Nathan

I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see
Painted faces fill the places I can't reach
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you and all you know and how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night while you live it up I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me, someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

I'm ready now, I'm ready now
I'm ready now, I'm ready now
I'm ready now, I'm ready now
I'm ready now

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see

p/s - "hayley williams... will you marry me?"

Dont let life pass you by...

This one is definitely among my favourite. lagu boiled frogs by alexis.. lyric dia best, meaningful. inspired by George's father (vokalis diorang). a song about how we can be stucked with our work and not really living our life. like how the song says it, "safe in monotony" di mana kita rasa selamat dengan rutin harian kita yang monotonous. tiada meaningful events, tiada extra effort, tiada 'push' dalam tindakan kita. would you want to end up like that? youth sold for a pension cheque.. would sell them just like that?

"My youth is slipping, my youth is slipping away.
Safe in monotony, (so safe), day after day
(Count your blessings)
My youth is slipping, my youth is slipping away.
Cold wind blows off the lake, and I know for sure that it's too late
(Count your blessings on one hand)

Can't help but feel betrayed, punch the clock every single day
There's no loyalty and no remorse.
Youth sold for a pension cheque
And it makes him fucking sick
He's heating up, he can't say no

So wait up, I'm not sleeping alone again tonight
There's so much to dream about, there must be more to my life..."

-Boiled Frogs by Alexisonfire (video di sini)

Istilah Bercinta

Artist: Ramli Sarip

Kau kata kau cinta
Kau kata kau sayang
Kini entah di mana
Tiada lagi kemesraan

Kau kata setia
Hanya aku saja
Tapi hilang ke mana
Tiada lagi keriangan

Ku tabahkan hati
Ku genggam azimat
Untuk ku balut luka semakin mendalam
Biarku hadapi walaupun tergugat
Akan ku benamkan biar jadi debu

Kini ku mengerti
Istilah sebenar
Di dalam bercinta
Tiada kepastian
Tiada penentuan
Akan kebahagiaan
Semua percintaan
Haruslah berkorban
Tiada batasan

---------- End ----------

Bertemu Hang Tuah..

Smalam, aku pergi tengok konsert Ramli Sarip kat MPO (Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra). it was a great experience.. and benda yang betul2 buat event tu best, ialah... seat aku sebelah dengan seat M. Nasir... abang hang tuah ku.. damn.. serious aku rasa cuak.. aku rasa gugup.. idola tu.. damn... aku rasa gelabah macam gelabah keluar 1st date... aku sempat salam dan sepanjang show tu aku rasa conscious sebab.. almaklumlah... idola ada kat sebelah.. =p gambar? dalam MPO takleh amik gambar.. and aku pun memang malas nak berpoyo amik2 gambar kat luar. good memories will stick in here *poiting to head.. it burns a perfect picture! no need SLRs or polaroids.. =)

1, 2, 3 Do Re Mi...

okay... tuan2 dan puan2... saya kusut. time2 macam ni.. abg hang tuah je bleh buat aku waras. tuhan kurniakan aku dengan hati dan akal. hati tu tegapkan.. tetapkan.. kukuhkan... akal tu.. tajamkan.. belajar.. sesungguhnya belajarlah! sekali tersadung jangan tersadung lagi di tempat yang sama. kudarat, kerahkan. demi apa yang kau percaya... demi apa yang kau sayang. perjuangkan. hanya ikan yang mati mengikut arus. ikan hidup berenang ke mana hatinya berada. aku belum mati! itu sudah pasti!

Apokalips - M. Nasir

1 2 3 Do Re Mi
Apa nak jadi
Alif Bata A B C
Apa nak jadi
Akan terjadi
Hujan pasti berhenti

Ada masanya aku suka berteman
Ada masanya aku suka bersendiri
Ada masanya aku suka berjalan
Ada masanya aku suka berehat

Ada masanya engkau suka berteman
Ada masanya engkau suka bersendiri
Ada masanya engkau suka berjalan
Ada masanya engkau suka apa yang ku suka

Hidup dan nasib roler koster
Susah dan senang bersilih ganti
Bila-bila boleh naik dan turun
Apokalips

1 2 3 Do Re Mi
Apa nak jadi
Alif Bata A B C
Apa nak jadi
Akan terjadi
Hujan pasti berhenti

Ada masanya kita suka berteman
Ada masanya kita suka bersendiri
Ada masanya kita suka berjalan
Ada masanya kita suka

1 2 3 Do Re Mi
Apa nak jadi
Alif Bata A B C
Apa nak jadi
Akan terjadi
Hujan pasti berhenti
(ulang sampai muntah!) gahahahahha

Bosan-bosan... marila menyanyi

"U Remind Me" by Usher

Yo, I ain't seeing you in a minute, but I got something to tell ya, listen.

See the thing about you that caught my eye
Is the same thing that makes me change my mind
Kinda hard to explain, but girl, I'll try,
You need to sit down this may take a while
See this girl, she sorta looks just like you
She even smiles just the way you do
So innocent she seemed but I was fooled
I'm reminded when I look at you.

You remind me of a girl, that I once knew.
See her face whenever I, I look at you.
You won't believe all of the things she put me through.
This is why I just can't get with you.

Thought that she was the one for me,
Til I found out she was on her creep,
Oh, she was sexing everyone, but me.
This is why we could never be.

You remind me of a girl, that I once knew.
See her face whenever I, I look at you.
You won't believe all of the things she put me through.
This is why I just can't get with you.

I know it's so unfair to you,
That I relate her ignorance to you.
Wish I knew, wish I knew how to separate the two
You remind me, whoa...

You remind me of a girl, that I once knew.
See her face whenever I, I look at you.
You won't believe all of the things she put me through.
This is why I just can't get with you.

You remind me of a girl, that I once knew.
See her face whenever I, I look at you.
You won't believe all of the things she put me through.
This is why I just can't get with you.