cinta dan secawan teh..

5 pagi.. seperti biasa.. secawan teh menjadi teman pembuka bicara. kamu.. kamu dan kamu... setuju kan kamu bila orang kata cinta itu buta? mesti sukar bagi orang yang 'celik' untuk bercinta bukan? beginilah hakikatnya kadang2.. mungkin bila kita pernah buta.. kita akan buka mata kita luas2 next time around. secara typical nya.. ramai beranggapan bahawa lelaki harus memenangi hati si gadis. si polan itulah yang akan membeli hadiah, mengusung si gadis ke hulu ke hilir.. bersusah payah itu dan ini.. atas nama cinta, rela kan berkorban jiwa dan raga. atas nama cinta, biarlah badan binasa asal si dia bahagia. berbaloikah itu semua wahai kawan2 ku? berbaloikah kamu menyiksa teman lelaki kamu sebegitu?

teman wanita yang baik bukanlah seperti sauh yang membelenggu leher si kekasih, rendering him static. extreme cases, drag si kekasih down and sink. cinta tak memberi kamu lesen untuk memiliki hamba abdi, pencacai atau kuli. kamu juga punya otak, kudrat, pemikiran sendiri, dan bukannya damsel in distress 24/7. jangan jadi lalang yang mengusutkan laman rumah nya. angin tolak timur.. timur lah.. angin tolak ke barat.. barat lah.. ketidaktetapan hati adalah racun yang paling bisa dalam membunuh cinta... semudah 1,2,3

semua wanita nak lelaki yang hebat.. tetapi ramai yang lupa, behind every great man, there's a great woman. kamu adalah variable penting dalam darjah kehebatan teman lelaki/pasangan/suami kamu. percayalah, kamu punya kuasa sehebat itu.. jangan abaikan tanggungjawab.. jadi jika si dia jatuh, sambutlah dia.. jika tangannya patah, jadilah balutan yang mengampuh lengannya. jika dia berderai... jadilah superglue that would keep his pieces together. if you want your knight in shining armour.. ingat laa.. the shining armour would need some polishing. if you are dating adam, can you say 'no' to the forbidden fruit? if you want your romeo, make sure you're willing to drink what's in the vial. mudah bukan? hirupan terakhir teh.. mungkin sekarang aku boleh pejamkan mata dan tidur..

Figura 1.1 cinta?
picture taken here

project cosplay

semua orang tau apa itu cosplay right? alaaa... dressing up like your favorite character from an anime/game/movie etc. aku memang suka melihat effort yang people pun into changing their plain old self to the vibrant characters yang diorang suka. kalo nak cosplay.. semua mesti nak select character2 cool2 je.. been talking bout this with some of my friends and they agreed that one character that i can cosplay with minimal effort. ada yg cakap i dont even need a costume for it pun to look like him..

figure 1.1 Retsu Ichijoji and yours truly

For those who cant really quite recall who's this guy.. watch this to refresh your memory

so... checklist aku untuk project gaban adalah..

• jacket coklat (preferably kulit)
• biker glove coklat
  
• gold chain for left shoulder
• custom space sherif logo kat right shoulder
• t-shirt hitam
• rantai besi besar kat leher
• seluar putih (jeans preferably)
• boot kulit kaler cream

at least kena try bagi dapat camni pun okay laa... (yes, super hero pun grow old lah..)

Figure 1.2 Kenji Oba (Mr Gaban himself)

persoalan yg masih tidak terjawab...

tolong laaa kawan2... aku dah fikir sampai tahap cair taik telinga dah.. meleleh air mata darah dah.. kalo korang semua suka tengok tv time kecik2 dulu.. ada satu drama tv jepun.. satu zaman dengan oshin dan moero attack.. tapi drama ni cerita pasal ninja.. hero dia nama sisuka or sasuka or something... time lagu intro dia gigit pisau pastu lompat dari pokok ke pokok(dia bukan monyet, penerajang nak???)... pastu.. ada satu awek yg lengkap berkimono... bleh pusing rambut dia yg panjang macam helikopter untuk lawan ngan orang jahat... pastu ada satu mamat gemuk... errghhhhhhh!!!! aku dah try kat google ngan youtube dengan pelbagai keyword dah.. dah korek segala pelusuk dunia siber ni... tak jumpa2 jugak... kalo bleh dapatkan title cerita tu ke... wikipedia entry ke.. official site ke.. apa2 lah... i'd really appreciate it!!!

onegai!

lagu hip hop mantap weihh...

amat sukar untuk aku suka, like really suka lagu hip hop.. but this one.. is like a gift from heaven!! muhahahaha

White & Nerdy by Weird al Yankovic

"White & Nerdy"

They see me mowin'
My front lawn
I know they're all thinking
I'm so White N' nerdy

Think I'm just too white n' nerdy
Think I'm just too white n' nerdy
Can't you see I'm white n' nerdy
Look at me I'm white n' nerdy!
I wanna roll with-
The gangsters
But so far they all think
I'm too white n' nerdy
Think I'm just too white n' nerdy
Think I'm just too white n' nerdy
I'm just too white n' nerdy
Really, really white n' nerdy

First in my class here at M.I.T.
Got skills, I'm a Champion of DND
MC Escher that's my favorite MC
Keep your 40
I'll just have an Earl Grey tea
My rims never spin to the contrary
You'll find they're quite stationary
All of my action figures are cherry
Steven Hawkings in my library
My MySpace page is all totally pimped out
I got people begging for my top 8 spaces
Yo I know Pi to a thousand places
Ain't got no grills but I still wear braces
I order all of my sandwiches with mayonnaise
I'm a whiz at minesweeper I can play for days
Once you see my sweet moves you're gonna stay amazed,
my fingers movin' so fast I'll set the place ablaze
There's no killer app I haven't run
At Pascal, well, I'm number 1
Do vector calculus just for fun
I ain't got a gat but I gotta soldering gun
Happy days is my favourite theme song
I can sure kick your butt in a game of ping pong
I'll ace any trivia quiz you bring on
I'm fluent in Java Script as well as Klingon
Here's the part I sing on

They see me roll on, my Segway!
I know in my heart they think I'm
white n' nerdy!
Think I'm just too white n' nerdy
Think I'm just too white n' nerdy
Can't you see I'm white n' nerdy
Look at me I'm white n' nerdy
I'd like to roll with-
The gangsters
Although it's apparent I'm too
White n' nerdy
Think I'm just too white n' nerdy
I'm just too white n' nerdy
How'd I get so white n' nerdy?

I've been browsing, inspectin'
X-men comics you know I collect 'em
The pens in my pocket
I must protect 'em
my ergonomic keyboard never leaves me bored
Shopping online for deals on some writable media
I edit Wikipedia
I memorized Holy Grail really well
I can recite it right now and have you ROTFLOL
I got a business doing websites
When my friends need some code who do they call?
I do HTML for them all
Even made a homepage for my dog!
Yo! Got myself a fanny pack
they were having a sale down at the GAP
Spend my nights with a roll of bubble wrap
POP POP! Hope no one sees me gettin' freaky!

I'm nerdy in the extreme and whiter than sour creme
I was in AV club and Glee club and even the chess team!
Only question I ever thought was hard
Was do I like Kirk or do I like Picard?
I spend every weekend
at the renaissance fair
I got my name on my under wear!

They see me strollin'
They laughin'
And rollin' their eyes 'cause
I'm so white n' nerdy
Just because I'm white n' nerdy
Just because I'm white n' nerdy
All because I'm white n' nerdy
Holy cow I'm white n' nerdy
I wanna bowl with-
the gangsters
but oh well it's obvious I'm
white n' nerdy
Think I'm just too white n' nerdy
Think I'm just too white n' nerdy
I'm just too white n' nerdy
Look at me I'm white n' nerdy!

nota kaki: korang patut checkidout video-video Yankovic lain dowhh... mantap!! go here

angkasa.. di atas dan di sebaliknya..

(ala2 space, above & beyond) xD muhahahaha

kalau satu hari nanti.. kita berjaya mencapai impian ke angkasa. adakah manusia akan hanya digelar manusia? tiada lagi berbilang kaum dan bangsa untuk kita saling mengenali? kalu kita perhatikan, kebanyakan filem2 atau siri tv sains fiksyen. manusia hanya diwakilkan oleh dua; hitam dan putih. mana pergi kuning, coklat, sawo matang, kelabu asap dan lain lain? semakin kita progress in time, semakin banyak bahasa yang hilang.. (atau language decay) semakin banyak adat budaya yg ditelan zaman.(dilupakan atau ditolak sebagai ridiculous) apakah bezanya si Ali Othman dan si Alan Richardson? (nama random) tiada beza? sama saja.. manusia? bukankah mereka adalah wakil budaya dan bahasa mereka?

kembali kepada cerita2 sains fiksyen, aku sangat memahami bahawa dalam pembikinan filem dan siri tv, mereka mempunyai budget yang terhad untuk meletakkan wakil dari setiap suku di dunia ni. aku bukan argue benda alah tu. mari kita merenung jauh ke depan sedikit. for humankind to move to the next stage, space, ramai yang bernanggapan bahawa manusia di muka bumi ini perlu bersatu terlebih dahulu. menjadi satu entiti. dan apabila kita menjadi satu entiti, ke manakah perginya identiti kita? adakah kita semua akan mempunyai satu bahasa sahaja? satu budaya sahaja? lebih senang begitu bukan.. sebab nanti kalo kita jumpa Klingon atau Twi'Lek.. mereka senang me'refer kita as human je.. bukan brown human.. atau white human.. (semata-mata physical variation laaa...)

owwhh... lagi satu.. banyak betul alien2 belajar cakap omputih kan? bagus arr camni.. aku bleh cari makan laaa nanti.. pindah ke Tatooine, pergi skolah naik Bantha dan mengajar budak2 sand people cakap omputih.. =D maaf ye kawan2... aku O.D. main Spore dan tengok space operas.

*ps- dont you dare to even mention that Malaysian space tourist here..

picture taken from here

Toys.. boys.. inseparable..

well.. lately i've been busy a bit. not because of raya. im staying home, alone, for raya anyway (yeahh sad.. but whatever..). im currently occupied in assembling this baby.. here.. =D it's a Messiah Valkrie VF-25S Ozma Lee Custom, one of the unit from Macross Frontier. yeap.. a descendant from our 90s cartoon Macross/Robotech that we used to watch when we were kids. i've been collecting some 'big boys' toys' for quite sometime. dont worry, im not that obsessed about it.. this one deserves a post because it's very nostalgic.. reminds me of my childhood watching the anime.. =D owwhh.. assembling this would take 2-3 more days (since im taking it slow and easy..) later i'll be off to my friend's house.. for a BBQ.. so i'll be back when im done with both.. xD nghehehe

all images from Gamu Toys

What the movie Twilight really needs...

1- a fair share of violence.. WTF, u're makin a story bout bloodsuckers.. things shouldn't be that nice and all mushy-mushy. u're making even the nicest of vampires like angel, spike and buffy the vampire slayer laugh their ass off.

2- a decent CG animators cuz they don't even have a decent one. the CGs are like something people did with the 'Lois & Clark: The new adventures of superman' back in the 90s.. for god's sake... do something about it..

3- don't be ashamed of getting a stuntman to do the stunts.. especially things involved with cables and what not. can people even call that, fighting??

here's an example of a good vampire movie... well it's an anime actually.. you can have the love element.. but please.. do it right.. =D

Kurozuka, an anime based on a real Noh play of the same title.

berfikir sejenak..

kadangkala... aku pun terfikir, adakah konsep 'ke-tuanan' melayu mempunya persamaan dengan konsep white-supremacy yang dipromote oleh ku klux klan (KKK) di america dulu. tolonglah jangan biar ia jadi macam tu.. lately, dengan macam2 isu haram itu haram ini bertikam lidah dengan human rights' activist.. aku harap ianya takkan melarat lah... chill dan dok diam2 sudahh.. orang-orang kat malaysia ni dah tak reti chill ke?? are u with me??

akar, barat dan persepsi..

ada satu persoalan yg terngiang-ngiang dalam kepala otak aku ni.. benda yang aku rasa sangat pelik walaupun... cam ada gak laa explanation2 dari orang tentang fenomena ini. time tu aku tgh layan guitar hero 3 ngan si ikram, layan sangap balik dari hantar assignment kelas master. singgah laa rumah si ikki wikki tu.. time tengah sparring ngan dia lagu Paradise City, dendangan Guns n' Roses.. ikki started singing the song in malay and he goes.. "selamat datang ke bandar syurga.. dimana rumput nya kehijauan dan gadis2nya molek2 belaka.. owh.. awak.. tolonglah bawa aku pulang?". persoalannya di sini.. kenapa kalo kita translate lagu english to malay(atau mana2 bahasa mungkin..), bunyi nya would be soooo wrong??

apakah kurangnya?? dan di manakah silapnya?? kita memperkatakan tentang benda yang sama... tapi bila it's in malay... dah bunyi semacam.. dah tak 'cool' dah. adakah ini kerana effect 'pandang ke barat'? mentaliti kita yang selalu anggap, apa2 yang mat salleh buat.. semua best dan cool.. mentaliti kita yang anggap.. apa2 yang 'local' semuanya tak best dan tak berkualiti. kalo seorang lelaki bermuka malaysia masuk, kita pandang sebelah mata.. tapi bila seorang muka mat salleh(atau busuk2 mix mat salleh) kita pandang dia cam 'up' sket.. aku bukan nak promote semangat ke'tuan'an melayu(or keMALAYSIAan) pun... just pelik dengan benda ni.. ukuran individu bukan pada berapa hampir kau ngan mat salleh(make it rupa, preference, lifestyle or even rakan taulan kamu).

kalau kita perhatikan dengan lebih teliti.. element pandang barat(atau mana2 mat salleh) ni agak clear gak laaaa.. contoh?? nak ke?? korang tengok sekeliling korang lah.. mak cik minah(nama yang random..) yg rumah selang 3 lorong dari sini tu.. bangga gila anak dia kawen ngan mat salleh. menajaja cerita ke hulu ke hilir. kalau kita ternampak opposite sex yang mix sket... commonly(yg loser je la..) akan cakap.. "uih.. ni high maintenance ni.. out of my league". apsal? dia mix dia makan lebih sket ke?? league mana ni?? liga M dan english premier league ke?? =p talking bout football. mungkin ni sebab akibat negara kita pernah dijajah british kot.. by default, kita akan obsess ngan english premier league.. team kegemaran.. secara default juga adalah manchester united. pasukan yang disokong time world cup dan euro.. mestilah by default england. bila 'kita' celik sket.. baru start sokong pasukan la liga atau serie A. sebab brazil banyak menang dan probability untuk diorang menang tinggi.. 'kita' jump in the bandwagon. and for the sake of variety.. start rooting for other clubs and underdogs. itulah betapa kuatnya dasar 'pandang ke barat' ni terhadap us malaysian.

kenapa kita takleh nak bangga ngan roots kita? aku melayu.. aku bangga ngan roots aku.. music pilihan.. keroncong, joget, dan bersyair... kau chinese, mestilah kau layan gak bunyian erhu dan opera yg pasang stage mobile overnite tu eventhough nama kau dah tukar jadi alfred atau joanna. kau indian.. mesti laa ko layan bunyi bunyian tabla yang mengasyikkan.. kau kadazan.. bidayuh.. atau mungkin iban.. mana2 sub ethnic dayak di borneo sana... mesti laa kau pun layan bunyi bunyian sapek dan agung or kulintang ensemble gak kan?? dan bila ada orang cuba mengetengahkan music roots kita ni dalam bunyi-bunyian modern, yang 'sempit' akan cakap kita merosakkan tradisi kita. yang 'luas' plak.. akan cakap.. kita takde modal dan guna benda yang dah ada je... ada gak laa several artist kita yang guna element2 ni.. tapi masalahnya mereka tak treat it with respect. just amik satu part dan loop2 kan je.. takde pengisian.. takde reference yang utuh.. takde synthesis yang betul (atau at least usaha for it..) just sumbat je part dari lagu2 tu sebab malas nak tulis chorus.

aku harap satu hari nanti aku dapat menyanyi lagu womanizer dendangan britney spears dalam bahasa melayu tanpa ada orang pandang slack aku atau gelak guling2 atas lantai lah.. i'd go "kaki perempuan, kaki-kaki perempuan oh... kaki perempuan oh... kau tu kaki perempuan. kau.. kau kau tu.. kau.. kau kau tu.. kaki perempuan x3!" =p

tak salah kan??

Figura 1.1 gula-gula mata (eye candy??)

Fashion police?

I don't know bout what other people(you) think but for me.. when you're out to have fun.. there's absolutely no need to overdress. Yeaa yeaaa... nowadays we have all the 'metro' guys.. 'uber' man.. modern hipsters... and the list goes on and on and on.. and sometimes, these people go to the borderline of their sexuality or sometimes just plain absurd. with the internet pumping the fashion veins locally, we cant expect to wear what people over the 'colder' hemisphere is wearing right? if your're wearing it at night, it's still tolerable. but if u're wearing a scarf on broad daylight under the burning sun.. it makes you wonder whether he had screwed his weather sense. or he has lost his affinity to temperature.

over in my working place, people go gaga over fashion. students go to classes like going to a prom/rave party/club/rock concert (choose an appropriate occasion suiting to your personality). i dont really mind actually.. it's nice to see something new and different everyday. however it crosses the line when u see a guy with full white tux under the scorching sun. pretending that it's not burning his ass off for the sake of style. well that's the extreme example lah.. im not saying that im that innocent as well. u can also see me wearing a black sweatshirt over a shirt at noon as well.. but it's due to the nature that i must wear something black and if i didn't do that, i don't know when will i have the chance to wear all my colored shirts. so, pardon me lah ye?? =D

the not so extreme ones would be the color combination. sometimes, the combination makes you go WTF!!?? imagine spandex blue, with bright florescent yellow top and covered with a 'lacoste' green vest and a bright purple bag. it defies all logic! simply intolerable... a sin to my eyes. usually, i'd be getting these violation from girls... now men are also into this 'defy coloring conventions' posse. yeaa... yeaa... i know lah you're indie... you laaa hipsters... but when men started wearing yellow pants.. it makes you wonder for a while (btw.. you're not Hailey from Paramore.. u cant pull that one off. DEAL WITH IT!!).

as for exposure.. i don't really care bout how much skin you're showing to the world. it's your body, your temple, your 'wonderland'.. so you decide yourself. if you're talking bout preference, i'd say the principle 'buka atas bawah tutup, buka bawah atas tutup' would apply (credit to ladyesah =D). if you're wearing something short up and down.. somehow.. it'll look cheap (just my opinion). i once dated a girl and she wore a small tube for top and a very short skirt and nothing more.. and i was like.. "WTF!!?? i'm going out for a date, im nowhere near the red light district!!" (no offenses please, girls.. my preference.. not your future bf's xD). what really turns me on would be something more subtle.. something suggestive.. off shoulders perhaps.. something like this...

Figure 1.1 & 1.2 Prove that u don't need to show your skin to look sexy
(picture taken from here)

as for men.. you can never go wrong with a t-shirt and a pair of jeans. well... if u're the experimental type, go ahead.. just dont end up looking like a clown with all the bright mismatched colors or end up looking gay(not the happy one... the sexual one!). preference? a nice ol' printed t-shirt works well for me.. something like these:-

Figure 1.3, 1.4, 1.5, 1.6 & 1.7 Familiar?
(designs are all rights reserved to Obey clothing line)

all in all... fashion is up to an individual to determine. i'm just giving my two cents opinion on the issue. if u agreed with me.. well nice that we agreed on something. if u didn't.. well.. it's really not my problem anyway.. so you can screw yourself all you want.. xD

Cuba click sini tengok..

Sebagai seorang warganegara Malaysia, seorang insan.. Sudah menjadi kewajipan aku untuk mempamerkan papan tanda ini untuk tatapan semua.

Figura 1.1 Dengar nasihat ye adik-adik dan kawan-kawan??

So amcam? Terasa inspired tak hari ni? xD muhahahaha

From here, now and onwards...

There we go again
Back to the same thing
Faith left cold in the rain
For misery is what it brings

There we go again
The same cycle over and over
Wash our hands from the stain
And cower behind our blanket as cover

There we go again
Back to where we started
Refused to be bled in vain
All happiness departed

If I could burn, I’d torch you dear
For every drop of kerosene fades with every scream
You're the tears, the means, the instigator, the sins, the fear, the dream..

There you go again.. and here I go now!
(No dear.. I need you to catch me if I fall)
Heads up, clutched fist, I'll march forward, onward..
(He's here but he's not you dear..)
Dive right out to the wide and the unknown now..
(Please dear who's gonna save when I’m not standing tall?)
This is my last regret, my last mistake, my final word!
(He's not here.. where are you my dear?)



Equine Park 28/10/2008

Hidup ini penuh drama..

"Ali.. I just can't help it.. he has been there in my life all this while.."

"Yea.. I know, been there.. done that. Don't let him feel like I once felt. You might just lose him forever.."

"I don't know.. It felt like having a big burden around my neck.. but I know his feelings are sincere.. It came out of love."

"Make up your mind Lucy.. If you think he's the one.. You shouldn't do what you're doing right now."

"I know.. I knoww.. I just cant help it.."

"Do you want to end up in the road that Sally and I went through?"

"I don't know if I'm that strong Ali.. I'm not strong Ali.."

"I was strong because you were there for me.. and all of them were there for me.."

"But I don't know how to see the world without him.."

"We are here for you Lucy.. I am here for you.."

"Ali..."

---------------

"Do you think I am making the right choice here, Ali?"

(Setelah kupahami aku bukan yang terbaik..)

"What do you mean??"

(Yang ada di hatimu)

"To be back.. starting all over again.."

(Tak dapat kusangsikan.. Ternyata dirinyalah yang mengerti kamu..)

"Work for it.. Nothing comes easy in this world.. and if your heart is telling you that he's the one.. Then go for it dear.."

(.. Bukanlah diriku..)

"Roger that boss..! I will.. By the way, where have you been these two, three days?"

(Kini maafkanlah aku)

"Well.. I've been around. Chilling with friends and what not.."

(Bila aku menjadi bisu kepada dirimu)

"Wanna go for dinner later??"

(Bukan santunku terbungkam)

"Well.. kinda have a thing or two to be done.."

(Hanya hatiku berbatas 'tuk mengerti kamu)

"Owh.. too bad.. movie over the weekend?"

(Maafkanlah aku..)

"Well.. practically watched everything over in the cinema already.."

(Walau... ku masih mencintaimu)

"Heyya.. Ali.. Lucy darling.. wutcha guys up to?"
(Ku harus meninggalkanmu..)

"Something fishy of course.. Naa.. I'm going off anyway.."

(Ku harus melupakanmu..)

"But Ali.. our movie session??"

(Meski... hatiku menyayangimu)

"Darling.. movies? owh man.. borriingg.. lets go party tonight.."
(Nurani membutuhkanmu...)

"Sayang.. i don't feel like partying.."
(Ku harus merelakanmu..)

"Later love birds.."

"Ali.. wait up..!!"

*music - Bukan Diriku by Samson

Buat malu kaum laa..

First and foremost, aku rasa negara kita ni semakin hari semakin merepek. Dahla isu politik dan macam2 dah kuar.. rasa macam politician2 ni semua aspired to be 'Raja Lawak' kot..? Make it from every side, barisan rakyat ke. nasional ke.. ke.. barisan celaka ke... semua suka buat benda bodoh. Macam mana people nak look up to people yang main tuduh2 macam budak skolah rendah? Macam mana nak respect orang yang kronism tahap maksimum? Camna nak hormat orang yg pemalas dan buat kerja bila people are looking je? Tak sedar ke kita ni "JUST A JOKE FOR THE GLOBAL SOCIETY?"

Nak lagi best?? Dalam kebodohan kebodohan politik tu plak.. ada jugak yang sengal2 suka memperbodohkan lagi imej negara kita ke tahap paling bongok. How? Mestilah dengan buat statement2 discrimination dan kadang2 aku rasa cam diorang ni sengaja nak dapatkan headline ngan buat benda2 ni.. Contoh? Alaaa.. banning konsert Avril lah.. Beyonce tanak datang sbb kita tak kasi dia seksi lah (padahal pussycat dolls lepas je..).. and lately release fatwa that 'tomboynism' plak salah di sisi Undang-Undang Syariah. Waaahh... syabas laa weii.. I bet kita ni a laughing stock for the whole world right now.. Buat malu kaum betul lah! Sekarang aku paham kenapa kawan aku yang study abroad tanak balik Malaysia. =P

Idola dan the urge to play..

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ketika aku masih seorang remaja.. was still a freshman.. aku selalu sangkakan aku adalah jelmaan Chino Moreno. dia merupakan reference point aku in each and every aspect.. daripada dressing, cara menyanyi, pose, dan juga cara bergaya dengan gitar. segala-galanya moreno. boleh dikatakan yang dia ni laa idola aku.. dia lah yg menyebabkan aku pakai sluar baggy tanpa tali pinggang ke sekolah di mana semua orang tgh sibuk dengan boot cut atau carrot cut. dia bagaikan seorang abang aku harap aku ada. dia juga telah membuat cita rasa music aku berbeza dari biasa. aku juga pernah berharap aku bedarah hispanic rather than melayu. .

semua itu adalah harapan dan mimpi naive masa remaja aku.. namun... sekarang aku nampak aku semakin ada banyak persamaan dengan Chino.. chin kami berdua dah lebih kurang sama besar.. dua2 dah ada double chin.. =D janggut masih sama.. kening masih lebat.. tapi dia ada dua.. aku ada satu je.. perut sama2 makin maju.. bontot sama2 makin lebar... (walaupun dia nampak macam selalu jerit nak buasir.. tapi kami tak tak mengalami masalah tersebut!) tetapi dia masih lagi mampu bergaya dengan suar baggy manakala aku cuma bleh settle ngan suar ketat di bontot tapi longgar di pinggang.. dia masih lagi bleh jerit dan perform manakala aku bleh jerit kat students dan 'perform' dalam kelas.. dia masih lagi bermain dengan gitar ESP Horizon atau ESP SC (Steven Carpenter Custom) manakala aku masih lagi stuck dengan Epiphone Gibson Nighthawk (model yang pernah dipakai oleh The Moffats!! i repeat, THE MOFFATS!!!)

So.. kalau anda seorang drummer yang berkebolehan.. (atau mengenali mana2 drummer yang berkebolehan) marilah kita pergi jamming sama2.. band aku takde drummer.. sebab drummer aku dah kawen.. dah ada anak pompuan baby girl, dah jual snare piccolo dia dan segala splash dan crash.. silalah rujuk di ruangan sebelah kanan untuk mendengar lagu dari EP Violet Gray.. kalau anda berminat.. =D kalo takde takpe.. aku bleh main drum sambil main gitar dan sambil menyanyi.. ramai yg cakap aku berkebolehan dalam multi tasking.. =p

Paint it like how you want it instead of black..

For me.. art has always been my 'thing'.. It has been part of my life in forms such as music, the game, something to draw and it can be said to be present in each aspect of everything we do. The art of cooking, the art of courting, the art of winning.. the art of losing.. it's everywhere. For one of the subject for our masters program, we have a visual art lecturer teaching curriculum development. So he made us go through an 'art therapy' session as the final class of ours. Loosin' up after focusing on all the serious issues we covered throughout the semester. The lecturer stressed that this would be a free for all art session. kinda like giving us a lot of paints and just draw.So this would be the first time for me to get my hands dirty with paint and go crazy! For me it's kinda like switching on your subconscious..
something like this!

Figure 1.1 Gabrielle a.k.a Sylar

Okay.. okayy.. I wish it would be like that.. and draw something like the end of the world or something. Now that would be cool.. =D nyeh he he~ So this is me getting on to it...

Figure 1.2 Hands on approach!

Noticed that i didn't have any paintbrush whatsoever? It's totally.. 100% made by hand. Azam's custom and each and everything was applied by these hands of mine! *proud* =D I just let my hands move as they wish and this is the final product..

Figure 1.3 The end of world? Agony? Anger?

The painting was still wet when this picture was taken.. I'll get a nice, dried-up, framed version later on ya? This one will surely be hanged in my room. Any interpretations guys? hehehehe. Well of course it's nothing close to a masterpiece. It's just uniquely my own masterpiece. Owh.. here are some of my classmates' work..

Figure 1.4 Everybody in the house!

Well.. wouldn't it be neat then to have the ability to paint the future??

Talk about 'Divine Intervention'...

I was driving my car from The Curve the other day with a friend of mine.. she lives somewhere over the MRR2 so i was sending her back home from our outing.. She's a very close friend of mine, and we share our joy and tears together since God knows when. The night before, i received her phone call.. she cried.. man.. she really cried. Why? Because the love of her life just got married. With some girl he just met.. well of course after a session at the usual 'Teh Tarik Place' i was enlighten to the fact that the guy married the girl as she was introduced to him by the family. Abandoning my friend, just like that, whom he'd known for years.

At that moment, it felt like i was still living in the 50s.. 70s.. That people would still succumb to family pressure in choosing their suitor, and it's even weird since the guy's family is the modern type and been living in KL all this while. Now back in the car, i was listening to the radio with her. Her eyes are still red as she was talking to the guy over the phone. She was determined to know where did they go wrong or any mistakes from her side. I overheard the conversation a bit.. but i preferred to listen to the radio.. as i wanted her to tell me about the conversation with both side in mind. Tears started flowing down her eyes.. slowly but surely and i heard "Syukurlah bukan sebab yang biasa.." my mind was a bit confused. "What did he say?" asked myself at that moment.

She hung up the phone and started explaining to me.. that the guy was introduced to the girl (now the wife) by the family and he was confused on to what to do. So he decided to let his faith be his guide and bended down in prayers, with the Istikharah prayer in The God Almighty's willing to guide him in making his choice. And that in his dream.. he saw the the girl he married was the one who appeared in a better manner or positive presentation or as the chosen one (i don't know because my friend didn't explain much) and thus led him to make the decision he made.

Over the radio.. i could listen the song by Jason Mraz whispering slowly, threading between our conversation. And came the part when he(Jason Mraz) sang "Before the cool done run out, I'll be giving it my bestest. Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention......"from the song 'I'm Yours'. "Nothing's gonna stop you but divine intervention huh?" I asked myself. "Well.. in front of my nose now I can see a 'divine intervention' at work." i added in my heart. I could do nothing to comfort my friend who was shocked in awe, perhaps in some way felt offended that God worked in favor of others than her. I could see "Am i that bad to not deserve him?" written all over her face. For her, it might feel something like a 5 years old whose friend said "Alif Lam Lam Ha, sape amik berdosa" while writing it on her toy. And when the kid tried to take back his toy, the friend would say "A'aa.. tak tahu.. kalau amik berdosa!".

I dropped her off at her house and all i could say to comfort her was "Nasha, it wasn't meant to be.. don't linger on it for too long.. There might be something good out of this. He works in ways that our small mind could never comprehend". I drove back and cant help but ponder about the issue. As i was just surfing the net.. i found this little discussion:-

"Sebenarnya amal ibadah yang mengandungi unsur-unsur tilikan dan bergantung kepada mimpi semata-mata bukanlah daripada ajaran Islam. Malah Nabi s.a.w. tidak pernah mengajar umatnya agar mencerap petunjuk Allah menerusi mimpi. Fenomena menilik nasib atau jodoh melalui mimpi di kalangan masyarakat kita, lebih-lebih lagi bagi sesetengah wanita perlu diperbetulkan semula. Amalan ini dikhuatiri boleh menyebabkan berlakunya dosa syirik kepada Allah s.w.t.

Hal ini kerana manusia bukanlah tuhan yang boleh meramal apa yang berlaku. Perbuatan meramal atau menilik mimpi adalah amalan dan budaya jahiliah yang sangat ditegah oleh Islam. Firman Allah s.w.t. yang bermaksud:

Wahai orang yang beriman, bahawa sesungguhnya arak dan judi dan pemujaan berhala dan mengundi nasib adalah semata-mata amalan kotor daripada perbuatan syaitan. Oleh itu hendaklah kamu menjauhinya supaya kamu berjaya. (Al-Maidah: 90)

Perlu dijelaskan di sini bahawa tidak semua mimpi manusia itu benar. Mimpi manusia biasa pada kebiasaannya adalah mainan tidur yang berpunca daripada pengaruh iblis dan syaitan yang datang mengganggu.

Kita tidak boleh menyamakan antara mimpi manusia biasa dengan mimpi para nabi dan rasul-rasul. Mimpi bagi nabi dan para rasul adalah wahyu dari Allah Taala. Kisah Nabi Ibrahim a.s. sebagai contoh, telah diperintah oleh Allah untuk menyembelih anaknya, Ismail a.s. yang datang melalui mimpi baginda. Allah s.w.t. berfirman yang bermaksud:

Maka apabila anak itu sampai (kepada peringkat umur yang membolehkan dia) berusaha bersama-sama dengannya, Nabi Ibrahim berkata: Wahai anak kesayanganku, sesungguhnya aku melihat dalam mimpi, bahawa aku akan menyembelihmu, maka fikirkanlah apa pendapatmu? Anaknya menjawab: Wahai bapaku, jalankanlah apa yang diperintahkan kepadamu, Insya-Allah ayah akan mendapatiku daripada orang-orang yang sabar. (Al-Soffat: 102)

Kesimpulannya mimpi kita itu tidak mengandungi kebenaran mutlak. Kemungkinan kebenaran yang terlihat itu lebih berdasarkan kepada kebetulan sahaja atau unsur-unsur daripada mainan syaitan yang bertujuan untuk menyesatkan manusia. Itulah sebabnya, jangan menyandarkan segala keputusan kepada mimpi. Sebaliknya berfikirlah dengan lebih rasional"

(Taken from http://www.pengantin.com.my/v1/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=12)

*edit (The Malay excerpt explains that in Islam, forecasting your future via dreams is not taught or promoted. It could be said that you're putting your faith on something other than God (Syirik) as dreams are just mind-play and sometimes are works of the devil. One cannot compare one's dreams to the prophets' and we shouldn't make decisions over it, instead, think about it rationally.)

So there we go.. The so called 'divine intervention' that my friend had an experience with. As for me.. regardless of whether it's wrong or right, i still think things happen for a reason. Just get over it and move on. No point in lingering on the same thing for too long. Life goes on.. But i don't know about you guys.. One thing for sure, I would be laughing my ass off if somebody were to say that "You don't deserve me because I had a dream about it". Man.. Can't you take responsibility for your own choices?

Music Kita: Yang Pernah by Estranged

Yang Pernah by Estranged

Silakan puas sudah disuruh
Nyatakan mimpi yang tak pernah lengkap
Lakukan apa saja yang kamu mampu

Sudahlah biar yang telah lalu
Lafazkan kesemua yang pernah ada
Akhirkan kalau ada masih tertinggal

Cukuplah kalau perangnya ada
Disamping kamu selalu

Andainya aku tahu
Ertinya disuruh
Semua kan pernah minta

Tibalah waktu untuk bersedar
Kerana giliran sudah menyuruh
Yang pasti yang panggil itu suci lagi

Berilah sedikit untuk aku
Hilangkan rasa hati yang tak percaya
Biarkan dia yang bilang jangan lagi

Cukuplah kalau perangnya ada
Disamping kamu selalu

Andainya aku tahu
Ertinya disuruh
Semua kan pernah minta

Andainya aku cari
Dimana dituju
Semua yang pernah jumpa

Jangan luka yang lebih
Kerana tiada yang memberi
Tiada cuma untuk kamu disini

Andainya aku tahu
Ertinya disuruh
Semua kan pernah minta

Andainya aku cari
Dimana dituju
Semua yang pernah jumpa

Hari ini aku nak bersembang ngan korang about another local song yang aku rasa worth mentioning. =D lagu ni dah lama dah famous.. dah selalu aku dengar ianya berkumandang di corong radio dan mungkin ada orang yang dah mula meluat mendengarnya tiap2 hari. Seperti biasa.. adalah lebih afdal jika korang gi lawat official website Estranged ni.. Aku mula berjinak-jinak ngan music diorang ni back dalam album and demo2 diorang before this. Furthermore.. diorang punya profiling kat dalam rancangan 8TV Homegrown pun sangat well executed. To be honest.. Aku betul2 rasa diorang ni sangat berbakat walaupun.. ada orang cakap diorang femes sebab vocalist ex Akademi Fantasia dan drummer dia model kacak slash VJ hitz.tv. Lagu lama diorang semuanya sangat powerful.. penuh energi laa kata orang2 zaman sekarang ni.. Well enough.. aku tak nak cakap pasal the people.. focus on lagu..

Yang Pernah is technically diversed.. aku sangat suka! riff2 dalam lagu ni pun dipelbagaikan oleh musician dan juga vocalist. Lirik juga sangat unik dan tidak menyentuh isu2 biasa(at least angle dia) seperti cinta cintan.. Kalau lagu album lama aku dapati banyak perasa Incubus(album SCIENCE laaa kot.. sbb ada bunyi2 tribal) ganas ala2 screaming sket pun ada gak kadang2.. Sentuhan diorang dalam lagu baru ni.. Aku dapat rasa macam ada reference to Japanese rock sket (aku rasa laa).. Tiada sentuhan ala2 Indo pop/rock di sini.. masih ada lagi tarikan suara ala2 Brandon Boyd time bridge/bearkdown tapi tidak se clear dahulu.. Kenapa aku cakap macam J-Rock? Cuba korang bayangkan kalo lagu ni diguna sebagai lagu intro anime Naruto, Bleach.. or Gundam. Sangat sesuai okay..

Ada a bit more aku nak comment bab this song. Diorang kan mempunyai dua guitarist.. So to make it even better, mungkin diorang bleh pan kan guitar left and right. Pan meaning one guitar focus on one riff or licks yang akan kuar kat speaker kiri and the other guitar akan focus on a certain riff/licks.. harmonics ke.. looping lick ke.. and yang hanya kuar kat speaker kanan. That's the beauty of having two guitars and not just your plain usual rythm and lead guitar.. Kalo dengar pakai headphones, memang masyuk habis laa... =D Diorang ada kuarkan video untuk lagu ni.. overall aku suka.. TAPI eyeliner(eyeshadow.. celak.. alaaa.. yg my chemical romance selalu pakai) tu MEMANG TAKBLEH BLAH LANGSUNG.. itulah spoil paling besar... yang lain2.. sangat terpuji gak laa for a local production.. aku lebih prefer video lama lagu Velocity diorang yang jerit2 dalam jamban tu.. aku tak sure laa whether lagu tu bout buasir.. tapi sangat best laa! xD well.. enjoy the song folks..



ini lagi satu sebab kenapa aku suka diorang.. AIM haritu.. instead of playing Itu Kamu, lagu diorang yang lebih commercially famous.. diorang menyanyi lagu jeritan jamban diorang (Velocity) instead. RESPECT!!! =D



Notice tak drummer dia punya splash ngan crash dia set up tinggi macam Jose Pasillas selalu set up drum dia? Bagi mereka yang tatau.. Jose Pasillas tu drummer Incubus ye? =D

Bag apa ni beb??

Satu malam yang sempurna, tiga orang kawan baik pun bergerak ke mamak terdekat untuk chill, catching up and also mini beraya selepas sekian lama tidak berjumpa. Ali, as usual akan pick up dua orang pivot (sila rujuk The Pickup Artist episod 7) nya, Cik Emma dan Cik Sheeda, kerana minah2 tu pemalas nak drive sendiri. Sessi meja mamak seperti biasa, penuh dengan dosa2 kecil gossip2 yang berleluasa. Tidak lupa juga perbincangan seperti kesan nescafe terhadap bladder system wanita dan kepentingan pengurangan gula bagi memberi impak maksimun, perbezaan antara pushing one's idea of greatness onto other and really experiencing a greatness aura.. dan pelbagai lagi..

Sessi perbincangan yang hangat tersebut terpaksa ditunda ke masa hadapan kerana Cik Emma telah mengalami sendiri, secara praktikal, kesan nescafe terhadap bladder nya. Mereka pun begerak dari meja kesayangan yang telah disinggah berjam-jam lamanya. Dalam keadaan separa tergesa, mereka menapak menuju ke arah kenderaan yang akan membawa mereka pulang. Ali mengeluarkan kunci tetapi dia noticed something.. "Eh.. aku tak kunci pintu." Dia pun terus membuka pintu lantas masuk ke dalam. Di sebelah sana, Cik Sheeda pun masuk kedalam kereta. Ali tercium bau yang harum.. "mungkin cik Sheeda pakai minyak wangi lebih kot hari ini" desus hatinya. Cik Emma pun masuk dan duduk di seat belakang.

"Ali, bag apa ni beb? Sejak bila ko ada girlfriend and biar dia tinggal handbag dalam kereta ko ni?" tiba-tiba Cik Sheeda bersuara.

"Handbag ko laa tu sial.. apsal kecoh sangat?" Ali menjawab.

"Beb, handbag aku ni haa.. aku tengah pegang.."

Ali memutar kunci keretanya.. tetapi masih tak dapat2... Di ekor matanya dia terperasan ada soft toy tergantung. "soft toy??". Dia pun berusaha lebih gigih untuk start the car and move out.. "soft toy?? extra handbag?? bau wangi yang asing?? kunci cant turn?". Tiba2 satu equation yg stable mula di grasp oleh otak si Ali, alien soft toy + extra handbag + strange scent + zero ignition = WRONG CAR!!!!! OMG f*C& SHit gila lahh sial.. "Kita silap kereta lah beb!!!" Ketiga-tiga ekor mangkuk tu pun keluar sambil ketawa berdekah-dekah, cover malu. Di hadapan kereta, ada sekumpulan remaja yg masih duduk melepak di meja mamak tersebut yang tersengih2.. (Cik Emma yakin mereka adalah tuan empunya kereta tersebut). Next time.. bila ada orang tanya soalan "Bag apa ni beb?" Ali pasti akan lebih berwaspada! xD

Figura 1.1 Ali akan menjadi temperamental bila melihat soft toy yang tergantung sebegini semenjak kejadian tersebut

(image taken from http://www.ronniedelcarmen.com/blog1/2005_11_01_ronniedelcarmen_archive.html)

Kenapa ianya berbaloi menonton filem Kami

(image taken from http://jaistar.files.wordpress.com/2007/11/kami.gif)

Pada kesangapan Syawal ke 3 di kampung, aku dan beberapa orang kawan lama telah membuat keputusan untuk menonton filem Kami (2008) setelah terlalu kenyang dengan open houses yang bersepah! Iyaa.. kampung aku ada GSC, so jangan jeles ye?? heheheh.. Aku keluar dari panggung wayang tu dengan hati yang puas dan merasakan ianya pengalaman yang berbaloi dengan harga tiket RM6 (GSC kampung.. murah sket! xD). Kenapa? Mesti laa sebab..

• Watak Abu yang sangat effective dan strong throughout the movie! Lakonan Nas-T memang mantap dan sangat natural dengan apa2 yang dia pull in the movie.


• Adanya 3 wanita(gadis?) yang kalo aku jumpa betul2 perempuan camtu.. terus aku buat girlfriend.. (The character ye.. bukannya the actor sebab aku yakin actors tu 'Minah Kelabing' asalnya.. xD)


• Semestinya sebab Abang Aru kita buat kemunculan dengan Koffin Kanser(classic!). Bila lagi kita nak bleh tengok Max Cavalera local kuar wayang?? =P owhh.. dan flyers gig yang listing band Sticknobill (band orang kampung! wahahahah)


• Realism.. Something yang aku bleh relate di mana gambaran jalanan dan penjuru2 kota KL ni as it is.. dan bukan as imagined by people jer (teringat Blue Planet wei.. yang skarang dah jadi apa kejadah dah.. Aku pernah main kat situ!) Owhh... keselambaan dan directness (is there such a word?) penyampaian juga sangat membanggakan..

Owwhh.. benda ni dah di cover oleh en. MM a long time ago waktu pratonton movie ni lagi (iya.. saya jeles sebab dia dapat tengok lagi awal!) dan aku pun pernah sentuh significance siri TV Kami terhadap music scene Malaysia dalam xanga blog lama aku tu.. Lagu2 dalam movie ni pun best.. takde Dragon Red.. tapi kalo tak silap aku.. ada bekas DJ Dragon Red(Nas-T tu dulu Dragon Red laaa kan??) dalam movie nie! xD wahahahahah ironic laa plak.. =D

Tak Mustahil Aku..

The Flash!



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Dan bila aku balik kampung..

Balik kampung.. as usual.. takde internet.. so takleh buat mende.. download movie/tv siri takleh.. download tab guitar pro takleh.. check facebook dan blog pun tak boleh..

TAPI..

Banyak benda lain aku bleh buat.. lepak dengan kawan2.. makan nasi kandaq ORI.. ala.. yg ada ganja tu.. bleh jamming sampai lebam.. bleh lepak sampai lebam (sesudah azan subuh).. bleh ngumpat pasal ex.. bleh dengar crita kawan2 yang banyak terkumpul dalam setahun ni.. bleh makan macam takde esok.. bleh chill ngan cousins.. bleh dengar updates dari CNN family.. dan baaaaaaaaaaaanyaaakk lagi.. =D

dan bagaimana pula dengan kamu??

Mahukah anda berjalan-jalan??

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Ye.. aku tau aku patut cakap pasal raya or something related to raya... kasik u guys e card ke.. letak gambar2 kampung aku and convince korang untuk balik kampung ke.. bincang pasal trip i nak gi raya kee.. cerita betapa i rindu kampung halaman ke.. umpan korang datang open house rumah aku dengan janji bagi duat raya maybe.. owwhhh.. malangnya bukan itu! Di sini aku nak bertanya kawan2 ku (dan yang nak jadi kawan pun boleh) andai ada di antara kamu yg nak pergi Fort Canning pada 8 November nanti untuk menikmati ROCKSTAR Taste of Chaos Tour yang bakal melawat Singapura nanti.. aku dah terlepas Funeral For a Friend punya konsert haritu jadi berazam untuk tidak melepas untuk kali ini pula.. Band yang akan main dan yang aku akan look forward to adalah Atreyu, As I Lay Dying, Story Of The Year and Horse The Band. Band ni semua famous waktu aku zaman muda2 dan seronok bermain gig, so cam nostalgic laa.. =P For further details bout ticks and all.. korang bleh checkitdout here.. kalau dapat roadtrip sama2(kawan2 lama dan kawan2 baru) pun macam menarik bukan?

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